I find it hard to just looking at you and do nothing...

I watch how she became from one joyful girl into a depressed unify human~ I hope that one day her beloved friends could realized how things that they do hurt her... they might just think that she is always happy and cheerful, but as for me, the one who saw her tears couldn't really say the same thing. I knew what actually happen when she saw their profile and things got worse because of that. She is as soft as Rose and as hard as Rock... And that is why her friends should be more attentive to her, as she to them.. Whenever she has a problem, she kept it quiet, and that really broke my heart... I didn't want to mess with her friends, as I am also a friend of them but... What they did was not harsh but in a silent thief... I could tell her to stop looking at their profile but I can't possibly stop her from thinking of them. They don't really know the truth and yes it is not fair for them, but what I want is just her to be the same girl or even a better girl than before... She just can't live without them.. And this other girl should lessen her post and be considerate of others... You know them not more than 4 month, but you're acting as if they have been your ten years friend... Bullshit! I know it is important to be friendly and at the same time the feeling of needed make us greedy, but you see stop hurting my little sister...! And yes her friends... Please know that you always hurt her.. A lot of time has been done, and yet she pretends that nothing happens! She might be happy with it but not me! Not when I know what does that effect her in the future. To whoever that might read this and got hit by it, I'm sorry... I can't do it anymore.. I need my sister back!

I don't want to know when can I go into heart~ what I want to know is...

He is my current obsess, but still I love you Mr. Sanz

How can I go into your heart... Wish that I know, I don't know when to stop thinking about you and your silly heart~ I wish that I knew a way that can make 100% sure that I am in your heart~ You never seems to care whether I can be there or not...Mr. Sanz I hope you can see that I really am in love with you~ Though it seems stupid to admit such thing, I cannot help the fact that I am so stupid to be in love with you when you only see me as a "friend". A friend that only came in handy when she wanted to talk to you~ You know now how to avoid me and yes it does hurt the very deep of me... I wish I can say I am one idiot girl who love a boy who doesn't see her as she is~ Maybe I should just scream at you the very truth of this painful love~ Why can you see me? I am right in font of you~ I wanted to stop falling for you... I want to stop searching for your name in Facebook, I want to stop reading your post... I want to stop open your pictures... Please GOD help me... In this very month, this holy fasting month, help me to love him~ It is never sufficient for me to be his "friend". So my last words are "I hate being in love with someone who know I'm in love with him"

I'm an official MyHottest2PM!!! yeay!!!

MY HOTTEST 2PM

2PM makes me cry once again~TT

Thank You (special for HOTTEST) by 2PM

eotteoke malhal jil mollaseo eotteon mallodo mojaraseo
amu maldo hal su eobseosseo neomuna gomawoseo eotteokhal jul mollaseo

wae naega joheun geonji i manheun saram junge nareul goreun geonji
nan haejul su inneun ge neomu mojaraseo i norael mandeureosseo

So I thank you thank you thank you
And I love you love you love you

nan amugeotdo motaejwonneunde
neon kkeuteobsi jugiman haneunde wae

So I thank you thank you thank you

And I love you love you love you

niga bonaejun sarang ttaemune
naega yeogi seoisseo ireoke

nareul saranghamyeo saneun ge neomuna himdeungeol aneunde
neoneun gyesok geu jarieseo byeonhameobsi seoisseo ojik nareul wihaeseo

wae doraseojil annni neomuna himdeul tende
wae gyesok saranghani nan eotteoke neoege
gapeul jul mollaseo i norael mandeureosseo

neoui geu maeum heullin geu nunmul geu modeun geot da itji anheulge

English Translation:

I didn’t know I was going to tell you like this
No words were enough
I couldn’t say anything
I was so thankful
I didn’t know what to do

Why do you like me
Why do you choose me among so many people
What I could do for you is so lacking
So I made this song for you

So I thank you thank you thank you
and I love you love you love you

I wasn’t able to do anything for you,
But you just keep on giving without stopping

So I thank you thank you thank you
and I love you love you love you

Because of the love you gave me,
I’m standing here like this

I know how difficult it is
to live while loving me

But you keep standing in that place
without any change
Just for me

Why don’t you turn around
It must be so tiring for you, why do keep loving me
I didn’t know how to repay you again
So I made this song

So I thank you thank you thank you
and I love you love you love you

I wasn’t able to do anything for you,
But you just keep on giving without stopping

So I thank you thank you thank you
and I love you love you love you

Because of the love you gave me,
I’m standing here like this

That heart of yours,
The tears you cried,
All that, I.won’t.for.get.it.

So I thank you thank you thank you
and I love you love you love you

I wasn’t able to do anything for you,
But you just keep on giving without stopping

So I thank you thank you thank you
and I love you love you love you

Because of the love you gave me,
I’m standing here like this.

I choose to say 'NO'

I know this is wrong, still I wish that they could just move on with it~ 

I really hate it when people say 'you need to be careful, when you make problems with me then everything will change' Don't they think that it goes the same way when they make problems with me...

Am I that easy, that people sometime think I am so that not worthed?

Well let me tell you all something, when I make problems or involve in one, I don't go and pretends that nothing happen! I don't go around and throw tantrums! I hide and cry by myself! That is exactly what I do~ When people ask me what is wrong, I tell them the truth and I say nothing but the truth! 

You all acted as if the only one affected is me, no you all won't get~ All of us affected by it, no matter how you think it wouldn't! I told myself that I can just ask forgiveness and let it go~ Well it seems like you all think that I'm being irrational out of no where huh? Well let see, I am immature but even though I'm immature, still I don't make such stupid unreasonable decision by saying things change~

Things won't change unless if we said that things change, got it! I called my precious still you all acted as if I am only a girl who doesn't care about anything else accept for herself!

I choose to say NO and you force me to say YES! WTH I don't need people who force me do something just because he/ she is older or powerful! I got my own reason still, my reasons are what? IRRATIONAL!!! huh f#*$ 0ff! I do what I know is best for me, and you don't have any right of saying it's wrong! I hate it, I'm sick of it when people force me to do such things which are really goes wrong beyond my principle! 

So this is it, I choose what I want, and I let go what I don't want! Get it! Now F#*$ OFF!!!   

I SAY THIS JUST ONE MORE TIME...

I CHOOSE TO SAY "NO"!!!!??? #$&^*@%^&!(&^)

I know this is wrong but I love you~

Oasis by BEAST

When I was standing at the end of the world and couldn’t see the path
I needed someone
When I was trapped in the darkness and couldn’t see the light
I was waiting for the helping hand
You wouldn’t know that you are the only one in the world
Who is the only one better than the world
I believe dream for you and me
You are the long waited rain in my draughty day. You soaked my heart and gave me courage
You make me fly and smile again
Coming into my arms and giving happiness silently just like a rainbow after a shower
I wanna make a love

When you found out that I ran away
Were you disappointed
I had courage to come back because you were there
You’re the one always in my heart
I believe dream for you and me
You are the long waited rain in my draughty day. You soaked my heart and gave me courage
You make me fly and smile again
Coming into my arms and giving happiness silently, just like a rainbow after a shower
I wanna make a love

Oh lonely night, it’s an endless and stuffy dark night
Those are the days when I cried alone during the dark nights
In lieu of the people
who would only hurt my callow heart (thanks a lot)
and my heart was having a draught
But that’s okay you make a way
The person who will be always guiding me is you, you you you
The only reason of living is you

Within my desert you are my oasis.

The sweetest chocolate.

I believe dream for you and me
You are the long waited rain in my draughty day. You soaked my heart and gave me courage
You make me fly and smile again
Coming into my arms and giving happiness silently just like a rainbow after a shower
I wanna make a love

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I will give you my life by 2PM

Don’t hurt anymore, don’t cry anymore
I’m going to watch over you, we’ll be together forever
Believe in love, don’t be scared anymore
I’m standing in front of you like this, telling you I will make you happy 

I’m risking my life, I’m risking my life
In order to love you I’m risking even my life
Do you know my heart, the heart that keeps wanting to see you?
In order to love, I’m risking my life

You’re not alone now, you’re together with me
When you’re tired of life and when it gets hard, I will comfort you
Believe in love, watch over me now
I’m standing in front of you like this, telling you I will make you happy

I’m risking my life, I’m risking my life
In order to love you I’m risking even my life
Do you know my heart, the heart that keeps wanting to see you?
In order to love, I’m risking my life

Nothing can tear us apart, however you see it, 
It’s our destiny

I’m risking my life, I’m risking my life
In order to love you I’m risking even my life
Do you know my heart, the heart that keeps wanting to see you?
In order to love, I’m risking my life

In order to love you, I’m risking it all.